Lonliness wraps itself around your heart like a strangling vine. It possesses you and slowly forces your surrender. I hate my life, but I'm held so tight by the grip of pain so I can't break free.
Bad luck. Was it bad luck that took Brian so young? Was it bad luck that Lola didn't stand a chance?
Is my situation bad luck or the result of poor management, weak skills, or laziness?
My family is gone. My vision is severely limited. My health is uncertain. My finances are unstable.
Is all this my fault, the design of a punitive G-d, or just an unfortunate play of fate.
In any case, I feel beaten down, impotent to create change. I feel like a drifter in a storm. Danger and loss are everywhere. Hope is gone.
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