Time Does Not Heal

It will be four years on Thursday. I remember those last days. I remember how brave he was. I remember how searing the pain of losing him was. Time doesn't heal. Time allows you to get used to living with loss and pain. Time eases the shock, but when the shock is gone the starkness of reality is so clear. I miss my husband. I miss our life. I miss feeling that there were things to look forward to. I truly don't believe that I will ever again be happy. I was so lucky. I had the best life could give. It is sad to know that the best is in the past.